what if....


What if you have something you thought in your head like you want a job in Klang Valley.. And then your mother said, "OK, i don't mind you want to work at kl, but I’m sure, better you find your job at here, jb"... So it kind of confusing either to follow my path or her...






I really really to find a job that suits well with me and I don't want to work with uncomfortable feelings like what I did before... It’s too much pressure that I feel inside... Every day to start a work, I said deep in my heart, I hate this job, I give up and I’m quit... It’s repeating each day...


So, my mom doesn't want me to work others than Johor Bahru... She doesn't give a clear statement about that, but I know form the hint she give... Not only a job, but everything she doesn't like, she will give a hint, and keep repeating from time to time... Its make me in a hard situation to choose either to follow my way or her... I know that I must follow what I want to do, what my heart have said,  but still I don't want her to be upset because of me..


It was happened before this... Back to few years ago... an important choice... I like lawyer, and I love architecture... And I don't give a shit to Microbiology or Physic or Chemistry... I know that I don't love that experimenting job... I like lawyer because I know my nature, always want to win... And I hate lose... I love architecture because I love to sketch; I love to imagine that building is created by me... I love those things...


But my mom said, lawyer and architecture is not a good choice of your future... She said that, nobody want to hire that two profession and it's hard to find a job related to lawyer and architecture.. So she wants me to take an educational course or related to biology courses... I hate to be a teacher, so I choose a few courses that related to biology and I get microbiology to study at UKM...


That happened a few years ago until now I realize that I can't suits well with biology profession... I love politician, and I still love lawyer as my profession... But nothing I can do to fix my life, to fix my future... So I hope, I want to continue my interest in politics and admins... My plan is continues further studies on that courses; politic and admins...





So back to main story, my mom want I to find a job related to biology, working at hospital, lab, experimenting on something that we didn’t see... She doesn't tell but I know from the hint she gives... Also she wants me to find job here not others... But this time, I will choose what I want, but still there is a little uncomfortable feeling inside my heart for not following what my mom want... 


Don’t get me wrong, I never said it’s my mom’s fault neither her choice is wrong... But...


It’s hard... I want to chase what I love to do, beside I love my mom and I don't want her to be upset...

3 comments:

  1. it's no wrong to follow ur instinct, but bare in mind that naluri ibu tu kadang kala ada yg tersirat. make good decision ya.

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  2. @NUke_Rude

    because of naluri ibu tu yang make me a lil bit afraid to make a decision..

    thanks =)

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    tercipta 1 lembaran sejarah di tanah suci kota mekah,
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    ibu punya naluri yg kuat kerana pertalian darah anak dan ibu....

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